low............

kinda feeling low these days......... career(if you call that one) going nowhere, my finance in a mess, my buying madness continues, dear Emilee is out of Singapore Idol........

Only "tested positive" for low-ness during today coz I discovered I ate more den usual recently, and thinking back, unnecessarily. Think my pillow above my 'six-packs' getting bigger. Energy level a bit low too, maybe tested too much computer program, on a dull small monochrome screen. I think I'm facing a screen 18 hours a day! Computer monitor and tv monitor. Think I should find time find somewhere green(even if it's only Bishan Park) and take a stroll, breath in some fresh air, look at the greens, and listen to the birds singing. Suddenly reminds me of reservist, which is coming in Oct. Maybe that's a good time for a break, but that's still some time away...

Anyway, I'm tired... brains aren't really working, and more testing to be done tomorrow..... sianzzzz..........

Sudden thought

Suddenly have this thought(according to past history) that I like girls who can sing. So ladies, start training on your vocals! :p

Cute Gundam clip

Haha, just saw this on the net, thought it is quite cute(esp. the song), so share with you all.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JKB8v-vB7R8

Anyway, this guy makes many many Gundam clips(think he got nothing better to do :p) Do check them out if you're interested.

What kind of life would you choose, out of this 2 only?

Imagine you are a working professional, getting good pay, have good family and friends around you. You married to someone you love, BUT quarrelling almost everyday with other half, sometimes even getting physical. Would you:

a) stay together, but restricted in freedom(even when buying things), carry on quarrelling almost everyday, sometimes getting physical, but hoping he/she will change coz he/she promised to;

OR

b) become single again, freedom to do anything, buy anything you want, and opportunities to find a better half.


Which would you choose?

Update..... finally

My friends complaining to me that I didn't update my blogs for a long time already, so here I am.

Lately been feeling tired. Maybe watch too much World Cup or what? But sometimes even when I have 8-10 hours of sleep the previous night, I still feel sleepy. Or maybe my luck's been down, falling sick every now and then, even before the World Cup began. Maybe my body is just not that strong anymore.

Still living the boring life. No change, so boring.

Was looking for a new job just now. Maybe it has come to a point when I feel staying here is pointless. Admin work is hard to prove one's value. Normally, it's the sales people who achievements can be easily seen with the amount of sales they bring in, but for admin people, how do you evaluate their performance? I may have chased back some outstanding invoices, which have been 'hanging' there for 3 years or so, and the amount is more than enough for a few months of my salary, but no one can see it. I gave up going outside to venture so I can have more relevant experience here, but in the end to be underpaid and lower than some 'newbie'.

Was filling in some resume just now. It ask for my achievements in my job experience. What could I write? As someone in the admin department, there's really not much to write. Implementing new accounting system? Does that even count? And there's nothing like Best Employee Award(or such thing) in my company which I(or any other staffs) can write of. Any ideas to change the system heads nowhere as there isn't really anyone in charge, and being a junior with only 2 years experience, seniors staffs do not want to make the changes. Only consolation is that at least I get to know my uncles better, esp my 6th uncle whom nobody can communicate with. At least when he talk to me, he can be quite soft and patient, which is uncharacteristic of him.

Will I go or will I stay? I don't know now. If I stay, I may really become a small fry and lead a simple life. Yet if I leave, I may end up worse, but I could end up better too. I had inspired to be a great banker, but gave that up when something happened(no details will be provided, so don't bother to ask). Yet now, I feel like pursuing that dream again. I can only say I'll be keeping my eyes open for suitable jobs, but to stay or not, I'll think later.